The sleep of trust

I wonder if the feeling of unsafe

Was born in your left eye

The one you used to spy on me

Where all my secrets lie.

What have you seen there after all

To make you want to leave?

Was I not worthy of your love,

Nor my love worth to give?

Was it the man that touched my skin

Or was the man that touched my soul

The one who knew before you did

That I long to be whole?

So did you come to realize

That it was you I sought

And it was I who felt betrayed

That you could feel me not?

Or have you ever come to see

That it was you I chose?

In spite of all the doubts and fears

It was by you I rose.

It was by you I learned to trust

You taught me to let go

To trust my longing, trust my gut

To trust my inner flow.

If I am ready to move on

Or plan it just the same,

I do so with a loving heart

With no one left to blame.

And as I lock the doors tonight

After the storm has passed,

I know I do not lock you out

For I am safe at last.