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Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Inner bird


Once, I swallowed a bird
Now, it lives inside of me
Inside my ribcage
Who am I
I ask
I became a human birdcage
a bird captive inside of me.
Sometimes, I feel its wings
fluttering against my inner walls
I open my mouth to speak
Instead
A bird song comes out of my mouth
A liberation song
Yearning to break free from inside of me.
At other times, I nest from the inside out
As the bird lays its eggs
Inside my heart
I become a giant
Enormous
Human
Bird shelter.
On sun days I pretend
To be normal
I close my eyes
So the warmth won’t hatch my inner eggs
I walk around,
Sun less, warmth less, bird less
Yet I always carry a hidden nest.
On moon days I ask my self
What am I supposed to do
To free my bird
Am I supposed to die
Or am I supposed to fly
Is there an inner sky
Where everything floats and flows on.Today I see my selfAs a bird turned inside outWith my feathers and wings withinA bird that has forgottenHer feathers and wingsA skyless, wingless birdRemembering herself.

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

open the door

there's a wind that moves me
it moves me to my core
it keeps me up at midnight
it makes me long for more

there is a fire that burns me
it burns me to my core
it keeps me warm in winter
it makes of me a whore

there is a tree that guides me
it guides me to my core
it keeps my backbone anchored
it roots me to the floor

there is a sea that drowns me
it drowns me to my core
it keeps me moist in drought times
it makes my waters pour

there is a love that fills me
it fills me to my core
it keeps my heart wide open
it makes me loose my war