Inner bird

Once, I swallowed a bird
Now, it lives inside of me
Inside my ribcage
Who am I
I ask
I became a human birdcage
a bird captive inside of me.
Sometimes, I feel its wings
fluttering against my inner walls
I open my mouth to speak
Instead
A bird song comes out of my mouth
A liberation song
Yearning to break free from inside of me.
At other times, I nest from the inside out
As the bird lays its eggs
Inside my heart
I become a giant
Enormous
Human
Bird shelter.
On sun days I pretend
To be normal
I close my eyes
So the warmth won’t hatch my inner eggs
I walk around,
Sun less, warmth less, bird less
Yet I always carry a hidden nest.
On moon days I ask my self
What am I supposed to do
To free my bird
Am I supposed to die
Or am I supposed to fly
Is there an inner sky
Where everything floats and flows on.Today I see my selfAs a bird turned inside outWith my feathers and wings withinA bird that has forgottenHer feathers and wingsA skyless, wingless birdRemembering herself.

open the door

there's a wind that moves me
it moves me to my core
it keeps me up at midnight
it makes me long for more

there is a fire that burns me
it burns me to my core
it keeps me warm in winter
it makes of me a whore

there is a tree that guides me
it guides me to my core
it keeps my backbone anchored
it roots me to the floor

there is a sea that drowns me
it drowns me to my core
it keeps me moist in drought times
it makes my waters pour

there is a love that fills me
it fills me to my core
it keeps my heart wide open
it makes me loose my war

The other body

Imprisoned in my body, a different body lies
More subtle of expression, less liable of ties
It bears the scars of elders, it heals the wound of age,
It wears its wings and feathers, it sheds all fits of rage.

Imprisoned in my body, a different body sings
More 'tuned to earth and nature, less bound to earthly things,
It sings without partition, it talks without a word,
It loves without a reason, it prays without a lord.

Imprisoned in my body, a different body hides
More grasping of sensation, less keen on virtue rides,
It longs to break its wrist chains, it craves for open air,
It dreams of seas and highways, it yearns to flee this chair.

Yet, as I move my body, the other body moves,
More free with every movement, less reticent to grooves,
They sync their hearts and centres, they merge their wills and sounds,
They blend their inner whispers as they dance on common ground.

mirror in mirror

the I in your eye
the you in my eye
mirror in mirror
fall from the sky
or fly?!
till mirrors brake
and eyes awake
to see
there's no I in eye
nor bird in sky
there's only the gaze
and the flight to amaze
us

The veil

There is a shadow in my house
A catcher in the dark
Above the flooded city streets
I see a flying shark.

There is a whisper in my heart
A song for times of war
Across the seas in rubber boats
I see them reach the shore.

There is a stumble in my feet
A fear that makes me run
Beneath the tombs of shattered dreams
I see the dream to come.

There is a longing in my soul
A call for love and grace
Beyond the veil of what I see
I sense a healing space.

Song of the lonely mother

A lonely mother's nest
is empty of desire;
it seeks the quiet rest
to which the gods aspire.

A lonely mother's nest
is filled with bedtime stories
of heroes put to test
to claim their broken glories.

A lonely mother's bed
is empty of sensation;
it seeks the strength to shed
the sheets of confrontation.

A lonely mother's bed
is filled with gruesome fears;
she's grieving her beloved
on pillows moist with tears.

A lonely mother's heart
is empty of allegiance;
it seeks the will to part
with overwhelming credence.

A lonely mother's heart
is filled with sweet surrender,
it longs to fall apart
in rapture, bliss and splendor.

Make believe

a glass of wine
a hungry heart
an empty city street
you make believe
you've done your part
so ends can finally meet

a song of freedom
a release
an ecstasy or two
you make believe
all sorrows cease
so dreams can all come true

a call to action
a rebirth
an ending to your shame
you make believe
you walk the earth
so no one's left to blame

a new beginning
a new day
an ally lost and found
you make believe
you've found your way
so all beliefs are sound.